Stereotype MeYou try to make me fit into your stupid thoughtsas one thingI am only a thing to yousomething you can fit into a categoryI am a cheerleaderthat must mean I'm stupid or popularJust because I wear black clothesand eyeliner I am gothAnd every day I read booksWhich makes me automatically a nerdI don't have tons of friends to hang out withso now I am a lonerTo you I am an objectthat you can placewhere you see fitI am much more than thatin every wayI am a cheerleadera gotha nerda lonerand so much more than thatI am meso just tryto stereotype me
Home is where the heart is.Where do I go whenMy heart is a blackened holeA cave in my chest
One or the OtherIt's not one or the otherI must have more choicesa variety of different decisionsI refuse to be placedput into a boxwaiting to be check marked from the listAnd once you place me there I'm not allowed to leavestuck in bold letters of common enemiesor alliesBut there is in-between the linesand gray areaskeeping us awayfrom limited optionsTell me I am differentI have my own categoriestoo unique to just "fit in"I'm better than pre-created place holdersignorant stereotypes givenby simple minded peopleAm I not allowed to fall in betweenbe that gray area in your black and white paintingI can't deal with be
Cutting AwayWeirdme?or do I just seem uninhibitedmaking myself into thisPolite, friendly on topquiet and a little off underneathmost of my time spent thinkingBut I can never come to a conclusionwhere do I lie?on the other side maybethen again I could still be hereHanging on by threadsslowly being cut away by societyhow cliche that soundsNo, it's not societybut even I didn't expect who really held the knifechopping the ropes I clung toHopes for a mistakea glitch in the process of thoughtleading me to this undenyingly painful endingthat has hurt me in ways I have yet to understandI wait in the cloudsbecoming quie
A Sterile GraveOne hospital bedFilled with blank eyes, leaving marksOn pristine white walls
BottlesOpening closed doorsand ripping out the souls that lay behindis not how you help peopleWhen we were youngyou told me"You can't bottle things up, you have to let it out."But I didn't listenI filled bottle after bottleall shapes and sizesEvery emotionevery memoryfiled and packed awayfor a day that I hopedwould never comeThey were in there for a reason,And you decidedthat you had the rightto break them all opento see the things that lay dormant insideNot carefully,one by oneyou came in and shattered themall at onceBroken glasslay at your feet while we both stare at each otherpanting, waiting for
Mother NatureTree ring eyesand quivering leavesshe shuddersas his ax reopens woundsSap flows down her cracked facesticky tears of ageslowly falling to earthin a silent cry for help
Forgotten DreamsI'm so tiredeyes nearly closedsoon to be sealed tightly for dreams to be exposedCan you see it?the way they drop like wilting flowersthe lids gently caressingcoaxing my mind into sleepby cutting off the worldI want to sleep so badlyit is just out of reachdue to the constant thoughts running me in circlesthrough my headWhat of tomorrowor the next dayam I ready to face everythingOr will my non-existent world come crashing downshattering into what used to beLetting the cold seep into my bonessurrounding me with lost memoriesand forgotten truthsBut my eyes are still droopingunable to heed the warnings of
She's Already LeftI'm doneit hurts and I don't carethey tell me I have no depthbut they don't understandI'm the little girl who watched the windows breakshattering bones and glassI'm the one who watched as they took her away and I could hear screaming,red and blue lights echoing through my eyesThe one with lonely nights spent breathingmy head waiting for my heart but nothing's clickingI can't move forwardI can't go on when my feet are stuck to the floorglue made of sweet blood has me reelingit's on me my hands are drenched in someone else's painShe doesn't rememberall those times when I needed herI can't hold on to something that's not the
Puzzle PiecesPut that over here,and that one next to this one...no, that doesn't fitPiecing you togetherhas become my favorite pastimestrying to figure out what you're thinkingFor you, I'm like a five year old puzzleCute, but easyFor me, you're like a 500 piece puzzlehard and longbut worth it in the endto see the beautiful pictureI pick up a cornerwhich looks like a part of the skyputting down next to the onethat might be a part of your pastEvery time I get close thoughyou add a hundred more piecesa hundred more questionsa hundred less answersAnd you won't even give me a hintto what I'm trying to makeBut as I pi
Bring Them to Their KneesHer body is a cavernwishing to be filled with happy memories and warm smilesinstead she is hollowEverything inside scooped out with tight handsgripping and grabbingpulling out her innocencethrowing away the young hopesreplacing it with self-loathingShe walks seductively bycovering up all her insecurities with tight clothesand the perfect amount of make-upHiding her fear within swaying hipsgiving out lustful looksbringing whomever she wished to their kneesShe didn't need anyoneshe didn't want any helpthat's what she told herselfShe had controlpower over themhad them begging for herNot the begging like sh
Endless LakeDip your toes in the icy depths of poetrylet it sting with it's truthstart to comfort you with it's twisting metaphorsI have yet to leave this serene lake of wordsRipples turning into voicesspoken with enough force to push me undermake me gasp for breath as the lines finishPoetry becomes usbecomes love and hateunderstandingsouls holding on to anything that's leftMy hands glide across the waterfeeling it's pulsethe beat of a heart romanticizing and utilizing the words we have learned to makeFading into an ever-lasting tremorthe tremble you hear when emotion becomes too muchWaiting in the pausesilence before
Maggots in the MorgueIs it the spark or the twinkle in the eyethat I eat?dreams and hopes now fadedbeing devoured by my minuscule mouthall metaphorically of courseI eat the actual eyedull and glassymarbles polished with a gray layering of dustin a now vacant mindI start at the pupila small black hole waiting to swallow me upmaybe I will eat some of the iris toobut not to muchas not to overindulgeconsidering that is the best partBrown, green, bluea mix of all or nonebut always differentunique, some may call itbut it all tastes the same in the endAfter that I start going straight throughnever mind the glossy white surroundi
CracksBrokenthat's what I amOkay, I'll admitmaybe that's a little over dramaticI just have some small cracksbelow the surfaceNothing majorat least not to meI won't say I cry myself to sleep every nightor cut my wristsbecause I don'tI sleep perfectly fineand the thought of cutting myselfis just weird to meMy life is nothing to complain aboutI have a few friendsboth my parents are still hereand still love each otherThat's more than most people can saySo why do I imagineall these bad things happening to meWhy do I think that one daymy mom will kill herselfor I might get raped in a dark alleyMy day dreams
Sea shellsI want to hear the sound of the oceanNo, not from the water and the sandbut from the shells I used to pick up and place against my earAfter that I want to go back to bedNot the bed that I go to sleep in every nightthe hospital bed my great grandmother lies inI want to hand her all these shellsso even if she can't get up and go there herselfshe can still hear the water moving against the shoreSo that maybe, she will think of me every time she sees the wateror hears the crashing of wavesevery time she looks down from her perchway up high and sees big brown eyes staring back at herI want to see her againnot by going t
ColorI stare at the rowsupon rowsof colorI think I've already lookedat all of themI put another to the sidethree on the sidefourfiveI stop and lookthe bottles next to me,they're talkingPick me!I'm colorful!I'm the prettiest!I can't chooseI can never choosemaybe this oneor this oneMaybe I won't like itor they won't like itor we won't like itWaitMaybe...it doesn't matterbut it doesI'll just pick one at randomOkayI close my eyesspinningspinningstop that oneWait it's red,I wore red last timeBut all of thisdoesn't matterno one will noticeno one ever noticesI see all my flawsb