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Dark was the lightIn the dark you can cry,
no one has to know why.
You can sit and lament,
ponder where your strength went.
Here you can let it all go
and no one else has to know.
It may be a time all your own
where you may feel so alone
but it's a time that you need
to just let your heart bleed.
To release tears and sighs
and begin your goodbyes.
Yes, in the dark you can cry,
without refrain to deny,
for once you let the pain go,
in the dark you will glow.

Silent DeathOlder and wiser,
Knowing my pain,
Feelings remembered,
Severed the vain.
Long to forget,
Past to leave,
Into the distance,
Blood soaked sleave.
Feeling the cold,
Chilled to bone,
Darkness descends,
Stifled groan,
Vision blurry,
Curtains of flesh,
Closed the world,
Tears fresh.
Sounds ever distant,
Fading with time,
Silence at last,
The end of my rhyme.

If tomorrow I don't Wake upI wonder what would happen
If I was never to wake up
Would people even care
I wonder if a commotion would erupt

Would anyone even notice
That I wasn't alive
Would my mother even mourn me
Or could she guess that I wouldn't survive

Well I'm still not dead
But I can barely call this living
I feel like a corpse
That hasn't given up on breathing

But I wonder what would happen
If I was actually to die
Would anyone be bothered
Or care enough to cry

Maybe everyone's just used to
Me living like a corpse
So no one would be bothered
Or life change the slightest off of course

But if I would never wake up
There's no way to know what

A Sterile GraveOne hospital bed
Filled with blank eyes, leaving marks
On pristine white walls

Fallen (Like This?)Being frozen, the breath you once released is now held between your lips
time stops, the only thing that moves is my beating heart
drowning, puffed out cheeks and stretched out arms
Mountain tops tall as the sun, I fall.
continuously as time and flow slows around me
I get a glimpse of the things I once ignored
closer
clearer
beautiful.
Was I now what we called reborn
feels like it?
Like This I feel happy
Like this fallen, just fallen
the edge of the world seems so easy to get to
reach
reach
reach~
time speeds back
normal wind whips through my face
my cheeks glossy red from the cold air
I close my eyes
I'm scared
yet calm
falling at a speed
only God can know
like a bird at flight
when it learns how to fly I spread my arms
just in seconds
I breath again
light like a feather I drop into the arms of a Diamond
strong but beautiful he had it all.
Pluck my feathers till they are all gone
one by one they release a new girl
unwrapped, uncovered
new to th

If youIf you were the sun, I want to be your sky
If you were the moon, I want to be the stars
If you were a performer, I want to be your stage

If I was the moon, you’d be the sun
If I was a leaf, you would be the gentle breeze that blows me away
If I was lost, would you look for me?

If love was the opening act, we’d be the main event
If there was a painting, we’d be the colors
If you loved me, my world would be all light.

All Your False PromisesYou say you love me
Yet you call other girls cute.
You treat me second best
Like I'm not worth a damn.

You said you won't leave
And then you changed your mind.
I hope you regret things
When I'll find someone else.

If I hadn't known better
I'd say you liked to use me
To simply make you feel better
That your ex dumped you first.

Your promises were bullshit,
You never cared about me.
If you thought I was special
Then why did you walk out?

My NoteI cry as I sit in the silence,
Alone in the lounge not watching TV,
The volume muted but screen aglow,
For I fear the silent darkness.
Thoughts of past and the present,
Flood every crevice of my splintered mind,
Pushing me to the precipice of madness,
Clasping to stop a fall from the edge.
Overwhelming sadness and hatred,
Despising of my own sorry existance,
That of a life of abuse and bullies,
Pathetically weak and wilting.
Incredulous of my own abilities,
And of the faith others portray in me,
Depressing feelings of abject failure,
From past, to present, to future.
Incapable of shedding emotion,
Relentlessly seeking a way t

The WindowI stand here before this
Stained glass window
On the outside looking in
Each multicolored pane
The source of my aggravation

Each color tells a story
Each story derives another
Piece of the puzzle,
A puzzle you can’t quite
Piece together

This game of charades has turned
Simple sign language into
Silent screams of desperation
You continue to defy the laws of physics
Reactions just aren’t your “thing”

How many more petals must fall
Before the lights within the attic
Illuminate this dreary fog?
When will my obvious words
Stop falling on deaf ears?

Moments turn into days
Days turn into sleepless nights
The end of the

FallenI fell.
My heart fell out of heaven
Plummeting to the ground
At the speed of sound
And shattered in
A thousand pieces.
But... Are you there?
Are you the one
To pick up the pieces
And to hold me close
Whispering to me
That everything will be alright?
Or will it hurt?
Will the stitches out of my
Recently healed heart
Come undone
As I stare into your hazel eyes
And see the echo of slate blue?
Will you catch me?
Or will I fall once more?

To Be YoungLying lazily in a place too south to be hospitable,
I dreamt of blue ridges - the kind of silver-black
crests that hid city lights between them. A place
I called home solely for the people who no longer
graced it.

Sometimes, I entertained ideas of travel -
A world of art and culture and golden streets.
Romanticized and placed precariously on a pedestal,
my memory betrayed me, filling in my emptiness with
joy.

I would long for a time when my future was still
unknown, and the world was mine for the taking. But,
the world took me. Placing another life within
my own, without much care, the world told me it was
time to grow up.

Ye

If you knewIf you knew my feelings,
would you feel the same?
Would you hold me close,
or push me away?

If you knew my fears,
would you comfort me?
Would you tell me it’d be alright
or leave me alone?

If you know my thoughts
would you accept me as me?
Would you think of me as less
and ignore me completely?

If you knew my desires
would you try to fulfill them,
or would you turn away,
disgusted by my longing

If you knew my love for you,
would it be returned?
would your love be forever
or would you leave me in the dust?

Dead FlowersSo you're telling me
that flowers grow
after they have died?

Well honey, I'd
believe you, but
in the past you've lied.

what about that
awful night?
The trees were pining for your name.

You chopped them down.
What a dick.
You think that glue can fix their pain.

All AloneWhat's happening?
Where am I?
All alone
On this dark
And stormy night.

Looking everywhere,
Left,
Right,
Behind,
In front...
No one.

I'm all alone here.
My only company
The hard, driving rain.
Thunder roaring every which way,
Lightning plummeting downwards
Towards the paved ground on which I stand.

How did I get here?
There's nothing resembling
Anything like transportation.
Not a car,
Bike,
Or train
As far as the eye can see.

Animals?
No...
Not even something
As simple as a squirrel
Exists here.

Plants?
Not even close.
This barren wasteland
Of torrents and heat
And of crashes and booms
Holds no vegetation.
No shelter for which to hide und

My Fragile HeartMy fragile little heart
Little fluttering dove in my chest
Delicate creature thou art
Lay thine worries to rest

No longer shall thee fret
of the peril of splitting in two
No longer shall love hold debt
Nor ever 'gain burden you

I nay dare love another
So as to not tempt Fate
Nor, my brittle heart smother
This I vow... this I state

My shivering little heart
Thou hath shattered many a times
So now my choice be smart
And safe be my fluttering chimes

Be gone Cherubs and Cupid
Thy arrows' poison be tart
Strike me not as dumb-muted
Strike not my fragile heart

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My Hourglass FigureUnsure and stuttering
you ask me
ask for everything
ask for too much

I refuse to take your pleas
to look at those desperate eyes
overflowing with pent up emotion

Leave me be
watch your reflection bounce back at you from cold glass
I have no time left to give
that's what you want, isn't it?

My time
more time
time, time, time

The sand in my hollow body has just about run out
leaving me empty
with false hopes that I might be turned over
giving me a few more hours on the clock

I used to be a work of art
now only cracked glass
wishing less life was wasted clinging to falling sand

I can give you other chances
if you help me

F

Empty MemoriesA resounding silence takes up the space
rebounding off unfilled walls
gliding through empty halls
nothing more than empty memories

Your incessant talking interrupts my thoughts
wearing down on my paper thin tolerance

Trying to stuff the void I left open
the quiet I hung there ripped down
torn up by your noisy complaints

My vocal cords are rubbed raw
by words waiting to be said
stuck in my throat
they can't be pushed down
but can't be forced out, just yet

Allow me to go back to my unforgiving memories
silent betrayers of my tired mind
unkept tendrils of forgotten knowledge
brimming over the sides if my head
pouring onto ungr

One or the OtherIt's not one or the other
I must have more choices
a variety of different decisions

I refuse to be placed
put into a box
waiting to be check marked from the list

And once you place me there
I'm not allowed to leave
stuck in bold letters of common enemies
or allies

But there is in-between the lines
and gray areas
keeping us away
from limited options

Tell me I am different
I have my own categories
too unique to just "fit in"

I'm better than pre-created place holders
ignorant stereotypes given
by simple minded people

Am I not allowed to fall in between
be that gray area in your black and white painting
I can't deal with be

Bring Them to Their KneesHer body is a cavern
wishing to be filled with happy memories and warm smiles
instead she is hollow

Everything inside scooped out with tight hands
gripping and grabbing
pulling out her innocence
throwing away the young hopes
replacing it with self-loathing

She walks seductively by
covering up all her insecurities with tight clothes
and the perfect amount of make-up

Hiding her fear within swaying hips
giving out lustful looks
bringing whomever she wished to their knees

She didn't need anyone
she didn't want any help
that's what she told herself

She had control
power over them
had them begging for her

Not the begging like sh

A Sterile GraveOne hospital bed
Filled with blank eyes, leaving marks
On pristine white walls

Falling for AutumnI haven't seen you in months
but you're still just as beautiful as last time
your long hair flowing gently in the breeze
red, orange, and brown mixed to make a silky curtain of colors

It's been too long since I could sit and relax with you
hot apple cider flowing warmly down my throat
keeping away the slight chill you sometimes bring along

Your delicious earthy smell almost overwhelms my senses
with a calmness no one else can give me
I've missed your soft touch against my cheek
gentle hands pushing back my hair

The sound of your voice is a flurry of air
through leaves that have yet to fall
the crunch under foot while we walk hand

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Suffocate Me

by ~LyingViaPoetry, Nov 15, 2012, 5:57:44 PM
Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Urban & Spoken Word

Just hold tighter
hold me down
pin me to the ground

It's what I'm used to
after hours of being forced to listen
to the sound of my own crying
my own screams

screams tearing my throat
I can still feel the blood dripping
no matter how many times I scrub my skin
I still see hand prints

Close up the hole within me
smother it into oblivion
cover it with your own body
suffocate me

That's what I'm used to
hands clutching my throat like it's holding him to earth
if he let's go...
no, it doesn't matter he never let go

Feeling the flow of air
from his lungs to my face
breath on me
make me take in only your oxygen
that's what I'm used to

Used to forced entry
to grunts of pleasure
cries of lost hope
cries of pain
him calling names

Call me names
say I'm your ho, your slut,
your everything
say I'm only yours
no one else
show me how much I belong to you

That's what I'm used to

Suffocate Meby ~LyingViaPoetry

Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Urban & Spoken Word

I think this sounds better when I say it out loud but I can't really say it to you so reading will have to suffice.

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~Laur-icula Nov 15, 2012

So emotional! I'm glad this didn't actually happen to you!

~candygirl101010 Nov 15, 2012 Hobbyist Writer

its a sad poem has it happened 2 u?

~LyingViaPoetry Nov 15, 2012 Hobbyist Writer

No it hasn't.

~candygirl101010 Nov 15, 2012 Hobbyist Writer

o goog i was woried 4 a sec lol good job

~sneekywolf3500 Nov 15, 2012 Student Artist

love it! omg you blew my mind with this keep it up this is what i like i love how you put your emotion into it this is amazing i'm speechless i don't know what else to say

~LyingViaPoetry Nov 15, 2012 Hobbyist Writer

Thank you!

~sneekywolf3500 Nov 16, 2012 Student Artist

no problem it was amazing i literally was speechless

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