Terrible Words

Blood pumping
heart racing
I start to sweat

I'm running
away from these terrible words

They chase me
everywhere
they're gaining on me

I run faster

If I could just make it
into that safe place
deep inside me
where they can never reach me
where I'll never have to hear them

They try to hurt me
I won't let them
I'll become a hard stone
that nothing can penetrate

Not even these terrible words

They're gaining on me again
my adrenaline is starting to fade
my breath has become short gasps

Why do they have to chase me?
Why can't I find that safe place?

My legs won't carry me much farther
the end is in sight
if I could only make it

But I trip on my own grief
and they catch me

I finally hear these terrible words

I am paralyzed
I cannot move
I can't stop them when they take me away
away from everything

They stop at depression
then they go on
into nothingness

Not the nothingness
that I was running for
the nothingness that consumes me

I don't want to eat
or sleep
for I fear
he is watching me
waiting for the moment
that he can strike again

Because these words have finally reached me
I know the truth about these terrible words